Good Morning World!
“What do you want to do when you grow up?” a question that always seemed to haunt me as a child. It was a frequently asked question by teachers, parents and friends and even from a young age I never knew the answer. I was surrounded by children who been dreaming of becoming a doctor or a fireman since they could walk but my response still remained blank. I never had an answer to fill in the gaps.
As I got older this question continued to be in the back of mind, I had to choose a career otherwise I couldn’t make live happily. Not knowing seemed to be my biggest downfall as I couldn’t make decisions that will benefit that career pathway and I had no drive to do well, as metaphorically speaking, there was no light at the end of the tunnel. This meant that when choosing my GCSE options, A-level options and University course I let my parents choose and I was then led down the path they wanted me to take, which made me feel even less in control of my own life.
This question still ponders in my mind, however the wondering is getting smaller after realising my true potential. After finishing Sixth Form I decided to take a gap year before attending university, as I still didn’t know what I wanted out of life, I had applied to a university I didn’t want to attend to do a subject I didn’t want to study. I can tell you, that this was the best decision I have ever made. In September this year I started working full time at a Private Care Home, and although this can be a truly satisfying job it isn’t what I wanted to do. I became so aware at the extent in which I missed my school years, how I missed staying up late at night finishing homework and writing essays the day before they’re due; I missed having something to do besides going into work.
I then enrolled to do several online university courses on a website called futurelearn.com, these courses last for several weeks and work like school. They require you to do you’re homework and hand everything in on a deadline. I have already completed a course in Psychology and got over 95%. These courses have been satisfying my need to learn in the time being.
Then I realised when looking back how much the school system contributed to who I am. I don’t mean that on a cringy level, but even as a child I use to really enjoy doing my homework or working on a project, so much so that I would run schooling classes for my parents and brother to attend. I would have so much fun creating lesson plans and timetables, and my favourite part about my little school was marking the test papers. This is when, as cliché as it sounds, I realised my pathway in life. I want to be a teacher!
Since realising this I have been looking at different universities around the country and trying to find the one that will best suit what I want out of life. I feel more in control of my life and I finally have an answer to one of my unanswerable questions.
“What do you want to be when you grow up?”
“I want to be a Teacher!”
Love Georgina xx